Mtandy, yes! So glad to hear you’re back! You can do it!!
A few thoughts, take them or leave them:
A book called The Willpower Instinct by Kelly Mcgonigal has been tremendously useful to me in my own efforts to make improvements in my life.
Another book, Better Than Before by Gretchen Rubin has been a fascinating and very helpful dive into habits and how to change them.
Maybe you’ve read them, but if not I highly recommend them because they are working for me.
I realize I’m a data point of one but hey if it helps someone else I’m glad
You’re an inspiration, keep going!