I still read this thread - to the OP I hope you are doing the best you can do - we all root for you!
When I first found Soylent it was amazeballz. Give me nutrition! I’m bad at the math so eating the nutrition in a serving of Soylent and eating THIS many times a day I didn’t need to worry about anything else.
This worked for me, for about a year - close to two. I lost 60 pounds. 24% of my weight.
Then the cravings came. I binged, I hated myself, I negotiated with myself - it was like the stages of death… and I lost… no I gained, I gained it all back.
Life is busy and grabbing Soylent was easy. Just like fast food. A bottle of this instead the dollar menus of that - and I could keep track. I was better than the other person that chose the dollar menu because I was consuming complete nutrition
Soylent is not a cure and it was never designed to be. This was a hard lesson to learn, understand, and comprehend.
Soylent is for when you, a person - with all the other alternatives - doesn’t have the time, patience, availability, of a meal that fits within your own nutritional guidelines you set for yourself.
Soylent is great, I still eat it to this day - but it seems like a lot of people are searching for a cure… a cure for maybe hunger, maybe nutrition, maybe image, general weight.
Soylent is a tool, use the tool, use it smart, use it for your own personal needs.